May, 2012
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Time to listen
Stopping by for a visit. Sorry for the blur- my window screen was in the way
Yesterday, we had a visitor here. A black bear wandered through my yard. It was quite the spectacle. I got several pictures. Earlier in the day, while reading and watching some anime, (yes i was multi-tasking), I’d asked the goddess to show herself to me. I’ve been feeling lost, and unmotivated. When I started down my path 16 years ago, Bast was my protector, and patron goddess. She’s kept me safe. However its felt lately that I don’t have as strong of a connection with her. After the bear sighting yesterday, i looked up the goddess who’s associated with them. Not really too much of a surprise to see it’s Artemis. I’ve always felt a pull from her. Ever since I was little, I’ve been infatuated with the Greek Pantheon.
It was pretty much confirmed that she, Artemis was trying to get my full attention, when I started reading the next book in “The Witchery Series – Call of the Witches” by Laura Stamps. The story starts out with Maylene, who’s patron goddess is none other than Artemis. Ask and you shall receive, right? I definitely got the message loud and clear.
Last night before bed, I tried to ask for guidance to come to me in my dreams, however I was just too tired. I will keep on it though.
Have you had an experience like this?
“just keep swimming….”
How in the hell did Dory manage? other than she’s a fish with a short-term memory problem and therefore hardly any problems or worries.
Astrologicaly speaking, the Solar Eclipse and New moon are harbingers of change and prosperity for their positioning at this time.. however, I’m not seeing an ounce of that prosperity. Just when i think.. “Ok, if we do “XYZ” we’ll squeak by” I get a big ol’ Fuck You from the universe.
I’m running a bit behind my self-imposed schedule this morning. however I’ve posted on one site.. i just need to do some bumps of my own business. I suppose updating my blog is a good thing too. i need to learn how to create site templates for WordPress. it’s just time-consuming. I’d love to pay someone else to do it for me- but that requires money, money i don’t have and can’t be spending.
it’s a vicious cycle.
until later.
an update, with a positive note :)
So, y’all know how I’ve been wanting to go to conferences for bloggers and social media peoples right? well I think I may have been able to hit 2 birds with one stone.
I know that when one door closes another opens. I’ve done some magick with my youngest for prosperity. Not so surprising it’s yielded some amazing results. More than, what i believe, could be attained on my own. I’ve been running a fundraising effort so that i can pay bills, rent, gas, and buy the items that SNAP benefits don’t cover. I guess one time that I posted about our efforts, my favorite uncle saw the posting, and sent me a message to give him a call.
He’s a busy person. When I called him yesterday, it was just a voicemail that he didn’t return. Today, I was able to catch him, however my phone died and when I called him back, well, he was on his way to a doctor’s appointment this morning so, I’d have to call him
Anyway.. he made mention of becoming his social media manager. Heck, I’m doing most of what it takes for that already, and many businesses are just starting to see how powerful this type of marketing really is. SO, i figure, why not? I’m on twitter, Facebook, google+, instagram, LinkedIn, and a couple of others. I have a blog, I’m becoming a bit more familiar with how WordPress works, I know how blogger works, so for me, this is easy peasy! again later. He lives in Arizona, so I think that’s a 2 hr time difference. it’s hard to keep up with that kind of thing.
So the huz has some seasonal landscaping work. I need to call in on my PT cleaning job, to see about getting some more hours in there.. but also, to get in some projects he’s asked me to try out.
lots of good possibilities now.. the aim? hang on tight and make each one of them work!
Because we’ve all been or are here now..
It’s a really scary place to be- broke, no job, children who depend on you- jobs available- but not to you ,for being over qualified or under-qualified due to being a stay at home parent for 10 years.
Since Mid March- this is our current predicament. no income- no work, and we’re now into the second week of May, and I’m getting REALLY worried. “A wing and a prayer” just aren’t cutting it. I’m trying to advertise my business like crazy, network, going to other businesses to see if they’d like to carry/consign my stuff. I’ve had VERY little luck.
who else is here?
I’ve got assistance from the state in the form of Medicaid & SNAP (formerly food stamps) however food isn’t going to do us a damned bit of good if we’ve got nowhere to put it because we’re homeless.
“OH, but you’ve got family and friends” – uh yeah sure that are broke and can’t help…
Listen, I’m NOT looking for a hand out- I’d LOVE a HAND UP though. Know of work in the area? drop me a line.. share my business around – you know the http://www.beyondthewillows.com Beyond the Willows. Help me support myself. Tweet it, Facebook it, Google+ it wherever- I’m in all 3 networks.
I’ve cast some spells – simple ones- that have yielded some pretty quick results. However, not nearly enough to get us through the month safely. we’ve got car repairs that are necessary – household items that are needed- I can’t just put every single penny of what little money comes in aside for rent. It’s just not possible. I need to put gas in the car, buy diapers for the minion, buy paper products for the house – re: paper towels and toilet paper.
I’ve got a PLEATHORA of quick, cheap, easy meals that are ‘family’ approved. Even from my pickiest eaters.
so, how do you suggest I get out of this mess? I’ve applied at McDonald’s, I’ve applied at grocery stores, ive applied to restaurants, I’ve even got a very part-time housecleaning job. by the end of this month i need to have earned $2000 because $1450 of that is for rent and electricity. then I’ll have to buy oil because our hot water is on-demand fired from the furnace., and the least amount of oil we can get is 100 gallons. fuel assistance is used up. I’m gonna go back to the church and town and see what else can be done.
NOTHING is being overlooked for work- unless of course we’re just not qualified at all. however, it would be nice if the man person would call and follow-up on jobs instead of sitting and watching tv or on the computer.
So, this is it. This is WHERE i am at with my family. No work – and the rate we’re going no home to live in, unless we get a fantastic stroke of luck. I don’t want pity or sympathy. I’d love to have some positive PR for my business, I’d love to have work, and I’d LOVE to have my business be both.
First magick spell
Today, i’ll say in a bit of desperation the little minion and i did some quick magick.
i’ll be the first to admit, that previously using my kids to help in magick have produced some AMAZING results. so i figure why not again? it’ been WAY too long since i’ve actively done any magick. so with some incense we asked to bring about more money.
I think it worked..quicker than i anticipated, but we’re still gonna be short unless we get work. I checked my child support account to find that it was a “decent” balance and coming in regularly again.
I guess we’ll just have to cast again to see if we get better results.
D5 Creation